How to be a mushroom:

I was going to say Fun-Gi (like “fun guy”) but it’s such a cliché, right? Anyway, I probably fall into using cliches in my writing, but I like to believe I don’t. Haahaa!


This is typical me, writing again after a spell of extreme business or writers block or lethargy/semi depression.

What was my reason this time? Extreme exhaustion from being so busy which lead to the inability of time and inspiration to write. Sorry if you’ve been dying to hear what I’ve been struggling with. But good news! Here I am about to tell you how to be a mushroom!

So, correct me if I’m wrong – because I actually don’t know a lot about mushrooms – (except that they grow on poop) – but it occurred to me that mushrooms grow in very specific environments: usually in the dark, where its cold, on dead or dying things.


Another fun fact, apparently mushrooms live by decomposing and absorbing the organic material in which they grow….

they also don’t have within themselves the means to grow like seeds do – because they are from spores, not seeds. So they need a kind of host to attach to in order to develope growth and sustain life.

So I was thinking, about how my life lately has been nothing but one challenge after another, stripping away all that I held confidence in and thrusting me back upon the Lord for my strength. And it’s been nothing but apparent to me that the Lord is preparing me hard core for the next thing He has for me.

Every personal relationship conflict, every injustice or unfair situation I’ve had to consider and then confront, the long-unreasonable-demanding and even exhausting work tasks and hours, every place I found I was weak where I thought I was strong, I can feel Gods intentionality.

So here’s how to be a mushroom:

1. Face whatever poops been dropped in your life

2. Don’t run but latch on and begin to decompose in that situation by placing all that you’re struggling with before the Lord

– in that place be still and know that He is God

– wait upon Him when even you have nothing to say but “teach me how to pray here Lord! I have nothing!”

– as you die to yourself and carry your cross, as you endure relying on the Lord – “Lord I can’t do this so sustain me”, – as you end each day and find He’s brought you through another day yet again, you will decompose

3. As you decompose absorb whatever the Lord gives you/shows you in each situation. Keep being faithful! Let nothing move you but the Lords prompting.

– pray and then seek confirmation for what you hear/feel from the Lord

4. You will realize that you are growing, that you’re making it through because the Lord is sustaining you!

– you will bump into people going through similar situations and you will realize you have spores of wisdom that Gods given you to drop into their life. Drop your spores – tell them what Gods been doing in your life, how Hes sustaining you despite all your  circumstances, pray for them – and then allow God to do the rest. Allow God to use the poop in their life to bring growth.


Allow God to be the substance on which they must rely to grow.

Because He will.

He is relyable. He is faithful. And we can rely that as we decompose in Him we will renew our strength. We will fly on wings like eagles, we will run and not grow weary, we will walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:31)

“For whoever tries to keep their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life will preserve it.” -Jesus, recorded in Luke 17:33

image* (Articles featured image credited to Margaret Elaine Spears)


My shadow…

It’s stretching out in front of me

into the dark valley I enter

and I think:

if anyone follows, the light behind me

will reveal them.

and I consider: that the greater the light behind me

the darker and longer the shadow before me seems…

so as the shadow grows before me

i have behind me

a more powerful ally than my foe.

Seeing His wardrobe

You know how whenever someone got to really glimpse Him in His glory, how they talked about the train of His robe filling the temple?

Last night I attended a special church family retreat. It was just a few hours long, but during the worship God kept showing me this piece of cloth. It was just a corner of it- deep navy blue cloth of a thick and sturdy cotton blend. And there was embroidery on it – embroidery that in my minds eye kept getting more and more detailed and intricate. And then I remembered the verse where when Jesus entered Jerusalem the people threw down their coats for him to pass over them.

…at the beginning of His ministry satan had tempted him to bow down and worship him and so gain all the kingdoms of the earth- to jump and trust that God would not let His sons foot touch the ground… Now at the last of Jesus’ ministry the kingdoms were about to be His…and the crowds were gathered, they threw down their garments so that not even his donkeys foot would touch the ground… But…why?

During the worship all I knew was that Jesus was telling me that He was making me beautiful so that when He came I’d have something beautiful to offer Him.

So what am I saying???

my friend posted this picture (featured above) of this slection of cloth designs/choices, and instantly my heart began to simmer a bit because I love cloth; I love textiles and textures. So I logged in and just started to write.

I had this idea that I wanted to shared about seeing the robes of God, the mantles of God that He robes His people in to do His work, to give them authority.

Remember the robe of Elijah? 2Kings2:9-14

The robing of Mordecci to honor and the ring to power? Esther 6,8

The parable of the two sons? Luke 15;22-24 -Where the prodigal son is marked again as part of the family and given authority once more?

The mantles they talk about in the New Testament – (a kind of anointing from God thru leaders to others for the work Gods prepared us for)? 1 Thessalonians 1:4-5, Luke 10:19, Acts 13:2-3, Acts 1:24, Ephesians 4:12-12

Is the train of God -that fills the temple- all the marks of authority thrown down once more at His feet when we’ve accomplished the will He’s empowered us to accomplish???

So if you don’t know, I’ve applied for and been accepted into ministry with Adventures in Missions this next year. The specific ministry I will be doing with them is a missions trip that visits 11 countries and partners with the native pastors and believers to minister in their districts and regions to be the hands and feet of Jesus among the lost and broken. It’s also to spend time encouraging and edifying those leaders and ministry partners around the world and in doing so to be mutually edified and built up as brothers and sisters of Gods family.

I am eager to see all that God has and is and will empower His people to reach with unending love His orphaned, suffering, and even stubborn people.

I’m so excited to be able to walk into the closet of God and see all the mantles of authority, blessing, healing, joy, faithfulness, longsuffering, kindness, mercy, grace, etc. that He’s clothed and is clothing His people around the world with -to heal and deliver and bring life to people all around the world!

To feel the textures and see the beauty of all He is weaving and has woven!

i cannot wait!!!!

WorldRace here I come!!

And I promise to bring back pictures and keep writing and telling all that I see and get to encounter!


Please join me!

Would you like to sow into what I’m joining God in this next year?

Please join me!

Please join me in prayer:

-for health for me and my team

-for unity and harmony in my team

-for open eyes, ears (to see and hear what God is doing and how to join Him), and wisdom with words!

Please join me financially!

Q: Is my position a fundraising position?

A: Why yes it is!

– I need a financial team!

Q: How much do you need to raise for your ministry?

A: Thanks for asking!

– my entire years financial cost is about $18,500

– since this is a traveling ministry the costs have to mostly be upfront to cover early visa and flight ticket acquisitions!

– by my training in August I need 5000

– by my launch in October I need 10,000

– by January 2018 I need total funding!

Q: What are you doing to raise support?

A: Right now I’m working and also supporting missionaries in the field

I will be finishing my current job at the end of May and plan to return to the states and find work for two months before I leave for training.

I also will be painting some landscapes and selling originals and reproductions.

I will probably be making some jewelry and some small stuffed animals – keychain animals and stuff 🙂

I’m working on and hoping to finish a book and get it published! (Wouldn’t that be amazing?!?)

Also I will be praying for a financial team to sow into what God is doing.

First and foremost! –> Please come alongside me and pray for Gods provision for my trip!

I fully believe that without prayer everything else lacks power! So please pray! Please realize that I need prayer the most!!!

Thanks!!! I appreciate your time and your prayers so much!

*[featured photo: by Abigail Bowers]