So much that I could write – but I’ll stick to just a few things.
Korea wise: Pollution.
Yes, the dust from china is killing me this week, if you were wondering. Apparently the chinese keep cutting down more and more of the forest between our countries and the fine desert sand blows over to us more easily. This fine dust is killer to the lungs.
When you watch tv and there’s news about asia and everyone is wearing masks – well now you know why!
….i wonder how North Koreans are faring….?
The main reason I’m writing today is a revelation i had last night.
I can’t exactly remember how it came up in my head (I was probably browsing hot guys faces in google images) but I realized that I am totally unmarriable.
What do i mean?
Honestly, if i met someone (attractive enough) and they even had the galls to ask me to marry them and I said yes – i would be such a burden to them!
Maybe not intentionally (I mean certainly not) – but I realize my character:
- I’m emotionally needy
- I need to be entertained
- I want to be able to touch too much
- I can’t have too much down time
- I want to be satisfied constantly
- And have constant exciting activity
He would barely have time for God!
Do I want someone that doesn’t have time for God?
No. But I want an active, interesting, attractive, funny, guy with apparently bottomless humor, energy, patience, and pockets.
This is a HUGE reason why I’m sure God hasn’t given me one of his sons.
He is a jealous God – and He didn’t actually make anyone for me – He made us all for Himself.
Are you single and want to be married?
Can you honestly look yourself in the mirror?
Perhaps theres a good reason you’re single.
For me I realize that I probably
can’t don’t want to change cause I enjoy my self centered me-me time life.
Am I ok with that?
Well,….I’m kinda checking out my realistic percentage of change right now.
I’m taking stock of who I am and who I want/need to be to be the kind of person who could actually be a live-in blessing to someone else. And then I’m going to see about steps.
Part of the reason I need to take this assesment is the fact that where there’s something in life that is a habit, it tends to seep onto other places in ones life.
What parts of my devotion to Christ and how i’m following Him in my life are getting wet from my me-me life habits? How is that affecting my walk with God and others?
How about you?